Last week I reported a man who scared me at the beach. It was intentional. He ran up behind me very fast and yelled “Hey!” really loud and aggressively like he was about to do something violent to me. When I turned around the man apologized and said he was just yelling at his dog. I cursed at him as he ran past me. I have seen him here multiple times in the past few months. He runs but does not look athletic at all, just a skinny, overly tanned tweaker with long dirty hair. I am supposed to take notice of him always appearing about the same time during my walk, running towards me too fast in pastel plaid shorts. This man is a perp who intentionally startled me and the reaction was strong. If he were any closer I would have acted out in self-defense and he would have been injured. I reported it to the lifeguard because he is creating a dangerous situation for himself and others. My former best friend, also in her early 40’s, has a serious heart condition. He could cause a serious cardiac event by scaring someone with her condition. I reported him and told the lifeguard I have had PTSD since 2012 and he scared me badly. He asked me for his description and said they would look out for him. He also asked me if I had reported him to the Sheriff dept. I said no and he told me to report it to them if he did it again.
This is the first time I have told any non-TI that I have PTSD. I have almost every symptom. Months of therapy in 2012 and not a single provider mentioned PTSD as a diagnosis or suggested any treatment for it. That is serious negligence on their part. Not only did they not try to recognize it or treat it, they went out of their way to exacerbate and trigger it.
Today I went for a walk at the beach. I have been walking this same route weekly for over 10 years. Because of the report I called in to the lifeguard last week I got extra harassment today. Including a State Lifeguard who blocked my path with his tuck then got out, walked up to me and stared at me. It was intimidation, stalking, crowding, and harassment. Now that I admitted to them I have PTSD they are going to try to treat me like they treat the vets. Stigmatize them, treat them like they are a threat, while constantly provoking and triggering them at the same time. Hoping for any chance to arrest, subdue, or kill them and play the big “hero”.
4:07 pm- Passed by Encinitas Lifeguard in red pickup truck driving South of Beacon’s Beach. Blonde lifeguard in passenger seat hangs arm out window which is sensitization.
4:25 pm- State Lifeguard in white pickup truck #JG arrives at North end of South Ponto Beach just as I am arriving to the jetty, where the perps know I stop and turn back. Male lifeguard pulls up next to lifeguard station as I pass. As I get closer he drives South, U-turns and loops back, stopping directly in front of me to block my path. He then sits for an extended time as I rest on the jetty, getting in and out of the vehicle once to walk around. He then drives over to the jetty and stops near where I sit. Gets out of the vehicle and walks on to the jetty and stands and stares at me. Busied himself with some other lifeguard stations there, lingers some more, gets back in the truck and leaves, passing me again on the road. Sooperdoosh :)
5:10 pm- Passed again by sam red Encinitas Lifeguard truck driving North towards Beacon’s Beach as I walk South.
5:36 pm- Passed by Encinitas ladder firetruck at intersection of Balour and Encinitas Blvd. East after I leave the beach.
I am now seeking treatment specifically for PTSD. These people are now consciously agreeing to persistently trigger and torture a person with known symptoms of PTSD that they initiated in 2012. They are, without question, acting with purely malicious intent.